still so close to silence
months of silence this time: the most difficult months of my life.
's long illness, surgery, relapse.
the argument that I can not write.
love lost and with it the hopes, dreams, plans for the future. lost the sense of many experiences, the meaning of the fondest memories.
is the awareness of a great illusion.
is awareness of a void that I was brutally torn apart and against which I have tried in vain to struggle, I finally gave up this fight and now I just have to resignation. I understand many things and I hope the cast: I turned off the illusion and I learned to live with my infinite sadness.
I have not stopped loving him, or to wait or to look in my memories, but I stopped believing in my latest and greatest illusion.
nothing will ever be now I've got to rearrange my life with a new sense.
I need to learn and put myself in the middle of the meaning of my life.
know that this change will be difficult, but I do not know if we can.
who knows ...
meanwhile I would like to know how it feels to be loved: I have no idea.
who can explain it? Share
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